I haven’t had much to say lately. Or, maybe I have, but nothing that couldn’t be summed up in a few sentences when I actually had access to something that would let me post here.<\/p>\n
I’m going to put some effort into changing that, though, if I can.<\/p>\n
Effort’s something that’s way too effort-like for me. And…oh, hell, I don’t know how to explain this. Maybe I should talk a little bit about other stuff.<\/p>\n
I have real, authentic Major Depression. The sort that isn’t fixed with ‘cheer up’, or even ‘cheer up’ in pill form. It’s helped a little by therapy and constant supervision to make sure I don’t forget to do things that normal people do in their daily routine [bathing, laundry-related-tasks, cleaning, eating]. It came bundled with anxiety, which probably made it a pretty good deal. Unfortunately, there’s a strict No Returns policy.<\/p>\n
And it’s been kinda bad lately.<\/p>\n
I was maintaining a pretty steady ‘zero energy pit of apathy I don’t want to move’ low when I found out my mental health doctor was retiring. I found this out when calling in for a new prescription for the stuff I [very occasionally] take for the anxiety issues.<\/p>\n
I needed that new prescription because I knew there’d be moments where I’d need it, because we’ve acquired a roommate. Nothing against the roommate — he’s quiet, rarely here, and doesn’t seem to be judging the mess-that-is-me too harshly, even when I want to eat the same takeout twenty-seven days in a row.<\/p>\n
I could go on a little more about the roommate situation [why it came about, and whatnot], but it’s not about me, no matter how much the little voices keep fretting about potentially losing friends.<\/p>\n
I’m not exactly handling coherence or transitions very well right now. Damn.<\/p>\n
Anyway, all that happened, but that was recent. So I guess it’s not a great excuse.<\/p>\n
Also, Gremlin’s computer died, and he’s been sitting behind me using a netbook, and that makes me not want to do anything, because I don’t much like being watched while I’m trying to do something. Nagging feeling of insta-judgement of an unfinished whatever.<\/p>\n
Then there’s the fact that my DS Lite is broken beyond my ability to repair it, and my 360 is in Red Ring Repair Limbo, and…yeah. This is a post from the Standard List of Blog Posts. #3. Whining.<\/p>\n
I also feel like I should mention that I never reach the apathy=invincibility stage in that post on Hyperbole and a Half<\/a>. I kinda wish I could. Everything else sounds about right, though. So just go read that — it’s a much better blog than mine.<\/p>\n I did just put up a sticky dry erase dot right here, so I could write down ideas as they come to me. Maybe having it there will remind me to do them. I don’t know.<\/p>\n It’s a pretty short list right now. A post about one of the things my mom gave me for Giftmas. Those reviews of what I’m calling ‘Pink Box’ DS games [the ones marketed directly to adults buying gifts for little girls]. The WTF nature stuff. A new thing involving a new app I got for my cellphone that has the potential to be funny [at least, to me]. Also, the strangest urge to do another series of posts in which I ‘review\/report on’ books.<\/p>\n Some of these things might rely on finding out if people want me to do any of them. Especially the book thing. The main temptation right there involves a couple of ‘novelisations’ [movies turned into books, y’know?], the Resident Evil books, and…actually, I’ve kinda wanted to go through Harry Potter, even though a thousand other people already have.<\/p>\n So…I guess we’ll see if I’m back here any time soon. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" I haven’t had much to say lately. Or, maybe I have, but nothing that couldn’t be summed up in a few sentences when I actually had access to something that would let me post here. I’m going to put some … Continue reading